Hello Dearest Readers, this post was inspired by an encounter I had tonight. Might I say, I feel like I've known this for awhile, but always put this thought aside hoping the situation will change but never does. See tonight I hung out with my ex, Justin. We broke up three years ago, but have now started hanging out again-we work together too. Every time we hang out it feels slightly forced, he's always mad at me about something, and then I'm there wondering why we're hanging out because he never says anything, and when I ask what's on his mind he gets annoyed. Tonight he saw my crazy best friend and I being silly, and wasn't a fan. That's the thing he isn't a fan of me when I'm like that-myself. He wants a different version of me; even the girl who dated him three years ago, was mad because she didn't feel like herself. Then why does he like me I wonder? He likes the idea of me, not who I really am. If he did truly like the real me, he wouldn't be upset with me, 90% of the time; mad because I was "bagging" on him when I was joking around. I'm always joking around but to him, I'm always hurting his feelings. He tells me he still loves me- but do you really?
My best friend and I were talking about this, my bff who he doesn't like, and she agrees, that he doesn't like me for who I truly am. And why should I stop being me, and walk on eggshells, to be misunderstood for a whole relationship-once again. I can't not again, not ever. So bro, you're either going to have to figure it out and realize it, or bye bye, thank u next.
Yours Truly, B.
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